The Trout Journals


Big Sky Anglers

When Amanda and I were in Yellowstone earlier this year, we were lucky enough to come across Big Sky Anglers – and Justin and some of his team at his shop. To say they offer fantastic service and more is an understatement.

Here’s a great blog post from a bloke who spent a summer with them.



I’d love to work for these folks…

Wild Salmon Centre


The Fly Program

I’ve been blessed with anxiety for a long time. Some days are harder than others. The last couple of years have been particularly hard; I’ve recently stopped taking prescription medication, after being on it for more than 20 years.

The partnership between my anxiety and fishing has been varied. I’ve had many times on the water where I’ve been so engrossed and engaged, that I can’t see, hear, feel or experience anything else. I think that’s call that “being in a state of flow”. It’s therapeutic, doing something that you love so much. Everything else fades away and you just “soak up the moment”.

I’ve also had times when my anxiety has been so bad, that I haven’t been able to even bring myself to think about fishing, let alone get out on the water. To someone else, this might seem strange, knowing how much I love fishing.

But I’ve learned that this is how anxiety works. It can suck away all the good things in your life. It can mean you have no desire at all to do any of the things you enjoy. It’s a shitty way to live. I’ve had times when I’ve been on a river, and have felt so sad that I’ve had to stop, sit down, and just cry. It makes for a quick ending to what would otherwise be a great trip.

I’m better off than some. Anxiety hasn’t totally screwed up my life, but it does make things difficult.

It’s great to see The Fly Program up and running. Hopefully the people who take part in it get a bit of relief. Fishing’s been a great help to me.

The people who’ve set up The Fly Program up should be congratulated. It’s a not-for-profit – I work for a not-for-profit – I guarantee you don’t devote yourself to that kind work for the money. It’s about long hours, not enough resources, and low pay, but the good part is you get to work for a great cause.

So what is “The Fly Program”?

The organisation was founded by Matt Tripet, a very well-known and respected quantity in fishing circles around the Snowy Mountains here in New South Wales.

A quote from Matt, on the organisation’s website:

“It became our commitment to provide the resources to assist Australian men to find a release and increase their quality of life, whether directly, or indirectly touched by these threads of mental illness and instituting a new outlet – participation in the natural world as a reprieve from the day-to-day challenges too many men face in our community.”

Matt adds that someone very close to him suffered greatly from a mental health illness.

“The heartbreak and the pain of losing a family member is always difficult to grasp but losing a family member in these circumstances is profoundly impossible to comprehend.

“Our brother’s legacy will always live on through The Fly Program and we dedicate our work to those we hope to serve in the community.”

To help make a positive impact on men afflicted by mental health illnesses, The Fly Program offers guided trout fishing, fly casting workshops, events, and in particular, their Men In Flight Program. Men In Flight aims to assist men with resources that support healthier lives, physically and mentally.

Again, from The Fly Program website:

“(Through the Men In Flight Program,) men will discover new places through lure and fly fishing programs and also discover some of Australia’s epic alpine wilderness locations on a mountain bike. It is in these settings we can create powerful platforms to talk, support and educate participants.”

For more information about The Fly Program, visit the organisation’s website and their Facebook page.


When you can’t go fishing…



I thought I’d sit down on the ground very quietly, and immerse myself in the wilderness. I imagined I’d run my hands and fingers through the grass and the earth. I saw myself standing in the middle of the scenery, stretching my arms as high as I could, to hug the world. I’d tilt my head towards the sky, close my eyes, and let out an almighty whoop.

I had dreamed about this for so long and I had the perfect plan.

Of course, none of that happened. Romantic anticipation and true reality rarely meet face-to-face. There were lots of nervous moments, brought about by nothing more than my anxious tendencies.

I pressed and rolled the sage between my palms, which heightened the scent and made the smell last longer. It was delightful. Although I had thought about sage a lot before our trip, it wasn’t one of the things that I obsessed about. The smell of it will be one thing that I’ll remember fondly, though. Well, at least as long as my mind lets me remember it.

Looking through the shelves of a big-brand store back in San Francisco, I was excited when I came across candles featuring the promising label “Sage & Citrus”.

Sage & Citrus

What a crushing disappointment. Nothing like the fresh, unobnoxious, clean smell of the real thing.

I’d give anything to be back there right now, for another chance to sit down on the ground very quietly, and do my thing. My religious ritual. It would be so romantic, so perfect.

In reality, that’s a load of shit.

As I write this, it’s freezing in Yellowstone. Literally. At night, it’s well below freezing. It won’t be long and there’ll be snow on the ground, and the earth will be hard from the cold. Many of the wonderfully inviting lodges and amenities inside the Park are now closed for the winter.

And if I was there, I’d be so anxious to fish, I wouldn’t be able to focus on anything else. But right now, there’s no cool, inviting water to wet-wade in. The water is only a degree or so above freezing. In fact, there are shelves of frozen water, all through some of the most famous rivers in the world. Tough way to fish, through the ice, dangling a mayfly nymph, with the very unlikely premise that a cutthroat would take it.

My grandiose expectations and the stark reality of the frozen wilderness are even further apart than the physical distance from Australia to Yellowstone.

But I’d still go. It is, after all, the most beautiful place on earth.


Dear Dave,

I hope this letter reaches you well. We met recently at Mt Republic Chapel in Cooke City, when Amanda and I were visiting Yellowstone.

Just a quick note to express my genuine thanks for the thoughtfully signed gift of Fishful Thinking: Letters from the Lazy G. Your writing is superb; it’s very easy to read and most entertaining, especially for a fly fishing fanatic like me.

Our trip to Yellowstone was utterly unforgettable. From the fascinating wildlife, to the huge mountains and the famous rivers, my wife and I were continually floored by the majesty that Yellowstone truly is. Driving into the park on our first day, my eyes turned just a little glassy as I blubbered quietly to myself. This was a place I had been dreaming about for many, many, many years – I was so grateful to have had the opportunity for even a brief glimpse of it on our first day there.


Over six days, we had some great success fishing Soda Butte Creek, the Lamar, the Yellowstone, the Firehole and the Madison. I had fantasised about fishing these waters since I was 13 years old, and the park delivered every single ounce of magic I had daydreamed about since I was a teenager. Our visit has filled my memory with wonderful thoughts that I will recall on a regular basis.

Borrowing an idea from your excellent book, the “last fish” of our trip was a beautiful rainbow from the Firehole which took a skating caddis off the surface, just downstream from Muleshoe Bend.

But the “last fish” I will remember most fondly was a sensational example of a beautiful and healthy Yellowstone cutthroat from the Lamar River. I worked the fish for around 45 minutes, resting it a number of times after I failed to hook it on more than a few drifts. When it finally took a small emerger, I realised how big it was. I think it would have been a typical fish for the Lamar, not enormous by any stretch of the imagination, but a very special fish for me, and much bigger in spirit than its 18-or-so inches.

After I released it, I knew it was time to string up my rod and head back to the car. I knew this possibly would be the last time I visited the Lamar Valley, and the grandeur of the sage covered, open plains criss-crossed by such magnificent rivers. As we left the Valley, I turned around in the passenger seat of our car for one last look.


And I cried, and cried, and cried.

Not soft, murmured blubbering this time, but a real river of tears, choked back as best as I could with words of “I’m fine, I promise I’m happy!” to my wife.

I’ve enclosed a few flies that are used here in Australia, in the saltwater estuaries close to where Amanda and I live. My passion is trout fishing, but I wanted to send you some flies that are a little more unique to fishing here in Australia. The flies represent crustaceans – shrimp and crabs – and small baitfish.

The tackle used for saltwater fish like flathead, bream and tailor is quite a bit heavier that that used for trout fishing. Straight leaders of up to 20lb aren’t looked upon strangely and don’t seem to impair the fisherperson’s ability to fool a fish into taking the fly.

Thank you once more Dave, for thinking to give me a copy of Fishful Thinking: Letters from the Lazy G. It will sit proudly on my bookshelf and I will read it often as I remember our fantastic vacation to Yellowstone.

Best regards,



I thought about Dad and tied on a biggish deer hair sedge; I thought a bigger fly might catch the attention of a hungry fish in the fading light. For some unusual reason, the thin tippet slipped straight through the eye of the hook on my first attempt. When the light fades on days I’m lucky enough to be on a stream, I’m regularly reminded that my eyesight is slowly deteriorating.

Deer hair sedge

I walked down the bank quickly and quietly and saw a pair of ducks sitting on the near side. My approach started them and they hastily paddled their way to the far side of the creek, quacking and chuckling.

“Bloody hell. There goes my last damn chance.”

If I had a 12-guage instead of a five weight, we would have had duck for dinner.

Going through the motions, I put my line slightly upstream and to the far side, just down from where the pool widens after a narrow run. It opens up straight across from me; the current is strongest there. The swiftest water passes right beside some overhanging ti-trees.

When you watch the flow of the water, you can see that it slows as the stream gets wider. It could be as deep as two or three metres in the middle. The surface current curls around to form a little eddy right in the centre. Right where I’m standing.

No response to my fly on the far side. I try again, but it all seems fruitless. It’s depressing.

Then it happened. The rise form was clear, despite the fading light. The fish surfaced right at the downstream edge of the eddy.

With a quick flick, I put the sedge in front of the fish. And I couldn’t believe it.

The last sizable fish I hooked, on the Murrumbidgee at Bolero, tricked me. He was big. He forcefully burrowed his way to the bottom of the hole. I’m sure the conniving beast sensed my anxious tendencies – were my knots true? Would the leader or tippet snap if he shook his head? My hesitance gave him enough grace to wrap the line around a strong snag at the bottom of the pool. The fly popped and landed gently at my feet. If he had fingers he would have given me the middle one.

I wasn’t going to fall victim to that shit today. I had waited too long to catch this fish. I had lost count of the dreams I’d had about what lies at the bottom of this mysterious, dark, boulder strewn hole. The browns in this creek are more sheepish than the woolly creatures that fill the paddocks alongside it.

When I got the fish in the net I let out an honest and loud expletive. It was the biggest brown I had ever caught. A true leviathan from the small creek. A resident of this sheltered, quiet, cool spot. Too majestic to roast over a fire. Maybe Adam’s boys will catch him one day.

Right on last light (grayscale)

It’s a long walk back to the hut after fishing all day. Up and down hills. Negotiating gates in the dark. Puffing and panting as my PVC waders trap my sweat and turn them into a little portable mini-sauna.

Not today. There’s a spring in my step. Today I finally unlocked the secret to this wonderful old trout stream. I danced along the track to the hut in the moonlight.